I have said goodbye to staying home all day with my sweet child for the third day. Seems like it's been years. It gets harder and harder despite the amazing support I have around me. I know in the long run it is definitely the best thing for our family, but it is still so dang hard. Lexi's teacher, Demita, could not be any sweeter, and we are really SO blessed to have the set up that we have. STILL, it's heartbreaking to not be with my baby girl all day every day. I can't stop crying! I know one day we will look back on this and laugh, but for now my heart is broken. I miss her when I don't see her for even 30 minutes. I am so thankful for Demita, and her constant patience with mine and Lexi's separation anxieties.
Thank you Mom, Dad, and Tonia for your sweet words of encouragement. Mom reminding me how blessed we are, Dad telling me that if it comes down to it just do what makes me happy, and Tonia's complete understanding of what I am feeling is the perfect combination to get me from 8 to 5.
On a better note, looking very forward to seeing Granny and Granddaddy tomorrow night when they come through town. They are both such rays of sunshine.
Goodnight y'all! :)
OH Lauren, I could not identify with this more..I was a MESS when I had to leave Baker at daycare. For those first few months I thought of everything I could to get him out of there, but in a short amount of time all will be well and not near as heartbreaking. In fact, when she gets a littler older and a little more exhausting (yes, they get more exhausting) then I actually started welcoming the break. It sounds bad, but its true. Moms need a break.
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